From the looks of this picture, you may think that I was in a knock-down-drag-out-fight. Well, I hate to break it to you, sunshine, I was. You may not have known because I took some time away from blogging and social media.

Let me explain.

For weeks, I was in a full-on battle, fighting the enemy and his many schemes to break me.

Despite months of praying and planning and open doors and divine appointments, I considered canceling the Be My Vision retreat several times.

I questioned why would anyone want to come and learn from me?
I wondered what unique message do I have to share?
I reasoned that it was too much of an investment of time, energy, and money–for myself and the participants.

But every time the enemy’s voice whispered in my ear, God’s Word shouted louder. 

“But you are the ones chosen by God, chosen for the high calling of priestly work, chosen to be a holy people, God’s instruments to do his work and speak out for him, to tell others of the night-and-day difference he made for you—from nothing to something, from rejected to accepted.”
1 Peter 2:9 MSG
“The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is upon me, for the Lord has anointed me
to bring good news to the poor. He has sent me to
comfort the brokenhearted and to proclaim that
captives will be released and prisoners will be freed.”

Is 61:1

So just a mere two days before the retreat, when I scratched my cornea, I laughed at the opposition and irony.
Be My Vision.
Can’t see out of my left eye.
C’mon, that’s just too good, right?

So ensure there are no rumors, I want to clarify.

I was not in a fight by the physical sense of the word, but as I was reminded numerous times over the course of planning this event, we fight battles daily that are not of the physical world, but of the spiritual realm. Ephesians 6

And during these many moments of resistance, I had great opportunities to remind the enemy who my Dad is and who he was messing with–a child of The Most High God.

In the face of adversity, I stood strong.
I was emboldened.
I sympathetically encouraged the enemy to lay down his weapon–he could never win a war that’s already been won.
I reminded him that I am choosing to obey a calling and that my obedience is a threat to his desire to win others into darkness–not under my watch, satan!

So what are you up against today, sunshine?

Remember that anytime you seek to obey, honor and glorify God, you pose a threat to hell and the fallen angels will fight to keep you from pressing on.

Don’t give in.
Don’t give up.
Press on.
Choose God.

“The Lord himself will fight for you. Just stay calm.”
Ex 14:14 NLT

“The more important a call or action is to our soul’s evolution,
the more resistance we will feel as we pursue it.”
Steven Pressfield
The War of Art